Wednesday, August 5, 2020

Hate

You witnessed George's reaction to "Rob was right" twice now, and this one was obviously permanent.

I frankly can't fathom how "Rob was right" could trigger that much stored up hatred.  I was merely hoping for something like "ok you're not a conspiracy theorist or Archie Bunker".

G did hit me where it hurt, as I still owe you a ton of money and am a deadbeat.

But I've been over this many, many, many times, and all of you seem to think that there must be something I can do to fix this mess I have indeed gotten myself into.

My original IRS bullshit debt was 250,000.  My reciepts and records are all "lost" (I trusted the wrong people ok yeah that was dumb too).

Under Power of Attorney, Korena committed me to pay off the entire bullshit debt (250/week til I die).

Only because I told HER to make this "currently not collectable" or "do not collect" or whatever it is am I not paying 250/week (because I CAN'T).

The debt remains.  Korena's husband is an FBI bigshot with connections, and his father is a super-CPA with connections, and this is the main reason I am able to subsist.

G thinks I'm a pussy for not going to the IRS in person, and maybe so do you.  But this is 250,000, I have no books to prove my case, and have accrued more interest and unpaid taxes as her company driver...and of course my contractual obligation to them at this time is 250/week in addition to current taxes for eternity.

I'm having trouble digesting all that hate from G, but assume he's been "damming it up" for a long time, and just used "Rob was right" to let it out.

I hope you don't feel like that, but have to assume that you do---especially since you're the guy who saved my ass and are still out 10k as your reward.

You know I'm not compulsively gambling or banging whores or whatever instead of paying you back, right?  She pays me 40 cents/mile and I pay for hotels during repairs.  Every time I get a little ahead something happens and I'm broke again.

I never replaced my laptop, or even my GPS router.

The best I can hope for with the IRS would be a 10-year pay-what-I-can-afford deal like the other owner/op I talked to got, but HE had a LAWYER, see?  (He owed 175,000).

If I go to them in person, I compromise my current status with them, which goes through Korena.  I pop my protective bubble, and (I promise) piss her off.

As I write this, I have lost 6 days in the last 14 due to repairs, and spent 4 of those in hotels.  I paid up my mailbox through mid-2001 but am still overdue with my Nevada corp for 2019 (720.00 I think).

She's not treating me like garbage anymore, and you can't understand how that matters.  I can sleep...

Well what the hell, I'll copy/paste this into an email and ask you to ask Matt or anybody else you know for advice on the tax stuff.

The other trucker paid 75/month for 10 years on his 175k debt based on his income (ability to pay) at the time he signed it (and of course paid ongoing taxes in addition).

I still think I need that lawyer.  I still think if I go to them without one, I will be a brave idiot, but Matt or somebody might know somebody;

As I mentioned, this trucker gave me a firm name in Houston, but when I searched it I got 6 matches, and could only eliminate 3.

If I don't get the right one, I might get what G got.

To be clear, Ed, I feel like shit about this debt I owe you, and want out of this situation so I can fix it.

Central Hauling would take me on (as an owner/op) and I could repay you.

I remember the last time we talked in person, and I hope you understand that I seek only advice or information.

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