It NEVER STOPS

That's it.  Another overdraft fee, and she's charging me 500.00/week.  My alleged check was 355.00.  

She screamed at me some more and she's gouging me 8600.00 for the damage I did.

My god she's bitching at ME for HER financial problems!

And she's lying about the checks having been mailed and about the bank.  

NOW I'm supposed to drop the truck at Bergeys and pay for 3 days at a hotel while they work on it!!!

I've probably got to pull the plug.  She says she'll go to the bank "again" today so I might have barely enough.  Maybe.

"It's never that bad" "There's always hope" bullshit, man.

Since were screaming I told her I'm sick of being desperate every fucking day and being in worse trouble now than I was over three years ago and paying for hotel rooms while being fixed and getting paid 40 cpm instead of 48.

Seriously Ed you got 10k coming.  At least check with a lawyer about getting it from her.  The OWNER of a truck should be responsible for hotels while the truck.  Why should an EMPLOYEE be forced to pay for them, on top of losing productive miles?

And again, it just has to be Bergeys, right?  When I could get this stuff fixed faster and cheaper at one of 15-20 places I've been to as an owner-operator.

See this? Three days at a hotel for me.  I might do it, man.  In her truck.  I'm really really close.

Yep. It's Worse. As Usual. You've Got to Crawl Before You Can...Die.

My bank just hit me with an overdraft charge.

Korena insisted that Kate had mailed 2 checks...but upon further investigation, niether had been cashed.

Korena (sigh) wasn't about to drive "up there" to do anything about it today, but (sigh) promised to stop by my bank tomorrow "between meetings".

She made sure to tell me that I don't care that she had to take out a 10k loan for the damage I did and to remind me that I'm going to pay for that and I asked her why she had to keep insulting me and if she was going to try to screw me out of 10k instead of the REAL damages and of course she blabbered and evaded as usual...

She really thinks I'm an idiot, because I don't CONSTANTLY nail her on every chickenshit lie (or THEFT); because I'm not living in a fake reality show like she is...

Anyhow I'm shit to her.  The only reason she's being marginally civil to me is the fact that I threatened to kill myself IN HER TRUCK.

It would be impounded.  She'd have to retrieve it (after a few weeks) and find another driver (and PAY him decently, and cover his hotel bills when he's down for repairs).

And she wouldn't get her repairs paid for...except...she knows about YOU, Ed!

Don't put it past her.  And in reality, I repeat:

If she had paid me the 48 cpm she promised and covered my hotel bills when I was down for repairs you would have been repaid over a year ago and I would have had a laptop and trucker routing and you know...not be in collections or under threat to get cut off or deeper in debt than I was when I tried to hang myself and five months overdue with Nevada and UPS as usual:

Dammit go after HER!  SUE her!  Instead of resolving my tax situation she commited me to paying them every penny they claimed I owed them!

Right there, I became her SLAVE, and she KNEW it, and exploited it ruthlessly.

You never got your money back because she screwed me financially.  I don't have a mortgage, car payments, rent, tuition--god dammit GIVE ME some time at bars what tf ELSE is there left to me!?!

I'm sick of it, man!  On the ropes for over four years.  Ducking, clinching, sneezing blood, trying to just fucking stay ALIVE---and this aint "Rocky".

I'm 63.  There is no way out.  Nobody to knock out...no chance.

Well ok let's see if Korena remembers to stop by my bank tomorrow and throw me some crumbs.  I'll hang in as long as I can.

Wow.  No laptop.  No Civ 5.  No trucker routing.  Wow.  Would YOU want this?  

I wish I could talk to you about this, but I can't.  "Oh no you don't want to do that it's never that bad blahblah" and (worse) advice on fixing my tax problems...you people don't seem able to comprehend BROKE.

Nevermind I appreciate your concern (not to mention your 10k).

...okbye.

Broke AGAIN

Amazing.  My check was allegedly mailed to my bank a WEEK ago and I'm dead broke AGAIN!!!

I had to put off 187.00 to Sprint to a drop-dead 4/19 and owe another 200 on the 25th.  My 100.00 collection payment due the 15th will probably bounce, and I still owe over 1100.00 for my UPS Box and Nevada fees now 5 months past due!

Jesus I emailed them about this and I know she's going to call me and scream at me about my "shitty attitude" again!  It's all MY fault TOO!!!

What tf am I supposed to do?  They were going to reinstate my direct deposit (and make ME pay for it) but decided to mail the checks instead of stopping by my bank once a week.

I PICKED that bank BECAUSE it was close to them and convenient for them.  It's one of those Korena RECOMMENDED.

Hopefully after she yells and screams at me somebody will drag themselves all the way to one of the FNB's surrounding them and make a fucking deposit.

This is my "life" now?  I'm all but dead except for a pulse.  The stress...God it just never stops.  Ever.

Update:  "I'm not home and niether is Kate.  There's nothing we can do.  I'll see if I can get money put on your fuel card".

Notice anything?  No apology.  No explanation.  Screw you, Robert.

Yeah I found 200.00 on my card when I fueled.  And the 50.00 that had been on it for tolls was gone.  So I'll be another 38.00 out of pocket when I deliver.

GODDAMMIT I HAVE TO FIGHT FOR EVERY LAST FUCKING CRUMB EVERY FUCKING GOD DAMN DAY!  

And I'll be signing my payment agreement and direct deposit