Yep. It's Worse. As Usual. You've Got to Crawl Before You Can...Die.

My bank just hit me with an overdraft charge.

Korena insisted that Kate had mailed 2 checks...but upon further investigation, niether had been cashed.

Korena (sigh) wasn't about to drive "up there" to do anything about it today, but (sigh) promised to stop by my bank tomorrow "between meetings".

She made sure to tell me that I don't care that she had to take out a 10k loan for the damage I did and to remind me that I'm going to pay for that and I asked her why she had to keep insulting me and if she was going to try to screw me out of 10k instead of the REAL damages and of course she blabbered and evaded as usual...

She really thinks I'm an idiot, because I don't CONSTANTLY nail her on every chickenshit lie (or THEFT); because I'm not living in a fake reality show like she is...

Anyhow I'm shit to her.  The only reason she's being marginally civil to me is the fact that I threatened to kill myself IN HER TRUCK.

It would be impounded.  She'd have to retrieve it (after a few weeks) and find another driver (and PAY him decently, and cover his hotel bills when he's down for repairs).

And she wouldn't get her repairs paid for...except...she knows about YOU, Ed!

Don't put it past her.  And in reality, I repeat:

If she had paid me the 48 cpm she promised and covered my hotel bills when I was down for repairs you would have been repaid over a year ago and I would have had a laptop and trucker routing and you know...not be in collections or under threat to get cut off or deeper in debt than I was when I tried to hang myself and five months overdue with Nevada and UPS as usual:

Dammit go after HER!  SUE her!  Instead of resolving my tax situation she commited me to paying them every penny they claimed I owed them!

Right there, I became her SLAVE, and she KNEW it, and exploited it ruthlessly.

You never got your money back because she screwed me financially.  I don't have a mortgage, car payments, rent, tuition--god dammit GIVE ME some time at bars what tf ELSE is there left to me!?!

I'm sick of it, man!  On the ropes for over four years.  Ducking, clinching, sneezing blood, trying to just fucking stay ALIVE---and this aint "Rocky".

I'm 63.  There is no way out.  Nobody to knock out...no chance.

Well ok let's see if Korena remembers to stop by my bank tomorrow and throw me some crumbs.  I'll hang in as long as I can.

Wow.  No laptop.  No Civ 5.  No trucker routing.  Wow.  Would YOU want this?  

I wish I could talk to you about this, but I can't.  "Oh no you don't want to do that it's never that bad blahblah" and (worse) advice on fixing my tax problems...you people don't seem able to comprehend BROKE.

Nevermind I appreciate your concern (not to mention your 10k).

...okbye.