I'm sorry again. The truck STILL isn't ready and I got a free night from Wyndham Rewards and have found that I can commit suicide with a towel (no hanging required).
I've been avoiding it because of all the people and institutions I owe money to, and also how it would screw up the good people at this Days Inn, but really:
I'm screwed. Call me "Fredo" if you want. I'm sorry. I wish you could take me out on a boat and shoot me in the head.
It wasn't all my fault, but ultimately in the US it's up to each of us, and I blew it.
You guys worked and studied and took care of business while I worked hard to avoid that.
My best real chance was as a songwriter, but I couldn't even stick to that (get into or start a band, get over my stage fright, etc).
I kept trying to skip steps; kept changing vocations. I was the NINE of all trades, master of none.
I was a GREAT trucker, but even managed to screw that up (and most of that wasn't my fault), and I'm sorry, Ed, that I hurt you on my way down that drain.
Ok but LISTEN TO ME HERE:
"Freedom and the Collective" on this very site is my "Hail Mary". I mean to complete it, copy/paste it to Word, and submit it to Amazon for publication, and it's better than 75% of the crap they market dammit.
I intend to name you as the recipient of all royalties if I see this through all the way to publication.
If I don't die, that's yours!
I naturally want to pay you back with interest first, but will retain control over this, so after that I can collect some of that (but you and your kids will ALWAYS get 15% in perpetuity).
If I die, it's all yours, and in either case, PLEASE don't assume this is just another Rob "fail". READ it! Pretend somebody ELSE wrote it!
I can't believe everybody ignored my step-ladder invention for truck trailers!!! Dammit none of you even took THAT seriously!?!
That told me all I needed to know about how you percieve me, no matter what!
Freedom and the Collective (by Lee Rising) is at least 15% as valuable to you as my truck-ladder invention!
Can't I just be a failure? Does EVERYTHING I've offered or left you have to be garbage as well? Freedom and the Collective aside, what tf is UP with you people to " indulge" "Uncle Archie" and dismiss his trailer ladder idea!?!
Yeah I'm just Fredo. You can stare a great invention in the eye and dismiss it because it was my idea. You probably won't bother reading my book...
Ok ok I'm an asshole and screwed you E, but I wish I knew when you guys all decided I was an IDIOT, too.
If I die, please don't ignore my book and invention, as either or both could make you lots of money. Please think with your BRAINS.
PS Freedom and the Collective draws on experiences none of you have had (but I have), while (roughly/generally) using the Barker/Morris clan as a model.
...just sayin
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