THEM

Well here it is Monday and no 200. They dragged it out til Friday, with Mac the hotel guy accepting deposits on the weekly from me til I ran out of money.

On Friday Korri's husband had a heart attack (not his first) and went into surgery.  She dropped everything to be with him.  Kate was on the road to attend a funeral.

I couldn't exactly keep pestering Korri with that going on, and I'm worried about the guy myself.

Kate said she couldn't do anything til she got back in the office.

Based on their most recent bashing of me, neither of them think I give a damn about anybody but myself despite my well-intended email.

Plus, Korena is making me a company driver for her.  She was expecting me to argue with her, as she had a sort of sales presentation prepared, but it's ok with me.

I half expected it, since she has to pay for my plates whether it's a loan or not, refile everything with the carrier, etc.

I believe she pays tolls, and she does pay maintenance.  I'm not sure about my per-mile rate, but it should be decent.  She will also pay fuel and truck washes.

I won't gross anywhere near what I did before, but my net will be decent.  I can't get any deeper in the hole.  Ill run the same loads.

I don't know if my volvo 670 will have an i-shift, but it's got 405,000 miles so it should be around 350,000 miles away from serious troubles, and the tires look new.

I owe att, plus my resident Nevada corp. agent, plus my mailbox rental--all way overdue, and the fiscal year will end in a couple weeks.  The rent will keep me til wednesday.

When she called (before the heart attack) she wasn't angry anymore.  That was Thursday night, and she said at that time that Kate would get me the 200 Friday.

As I predicted, it got dragged out.  Kate just forgot or something.  She texted she was sorry she'd been working on my truck.

It's always like this, for whatever reason.  I'm rarely allowed to feel secure or comfortable.  There is always something overdue, and something else I'm waiting for and have to keep begging for and worrying about.  I sold the truck over 2 weeks ago, and I'm still trying to get the last 200 of the thousand I asked for!  Always.  Every time.

As a company driver I won't have to go through that any more.  Korena will probably put me on a 500/week limit until she has her own money back.

She's not as bad as Kate, and knows I've got a bunch of overdue bills to pay.  She'll be paying my corporation, which will be paying those bills.  I as an individual will work for free until those bills are paid.

I will still hit hotels when I can, and that will be on me unless I'm down for repairs.  I don't know if Korri will pay then.

I get the railroad meal allotment deduction of around 50.00/day...getting in the weeds here.

A little later, ill send an email suggesting she take over my existing Best pass (toll) account.  I have a positive balance with them, and she could deduct that off what I owe her.

But for now, I'm still biting my nails to the quick and sleeping only intermittently and worrying and stressing over unpaid rent and my next meal and Korri's husband and once that bill is paid ill go to the bar to watch the first half of Monday night football to see if the few fantasy lottery tickets I have left alive will salvage anything from my disastrous weekend.

My apologies to Andy Dalton for his mangled thumb.  That was THEM.

I will be an owner-operator again, but it might take a long time.  This truck won't have a refrigerator or APU.  She won't let me modify it in any significant way.  If it doesn't have an i-shift, I won't want to buy it anyway.

Pressed for time, I left a lot of stuff in the truck.  I forgot some important tools.  I got my clothes and bedding and electronic devices, but I'll have to buy some stuff as soon as I have two nickels to rub together.

But the future looks somewhat better for now as a company driver.  I will certainly make a lot more than I did with old leaky cranky old mantruck, and when I do need repairs she won't waste time paying for those and getting me out of there, and I won't owe her for them.

For you, it means I'm ok.  It's not my truck.  I can't get in big trouble.

Now it's time to wait for Mac to knock on my door asking why he hasn't been paid yet.

Update: My phone is cut off for nonpayment.  I emailed Korena/Kate using hotel WiFi.  "Call your brother.  I'm at the hospital and I'm not leaving. Kate is at her father in law's funeral."

So I emailed our brother G again.  Asked for the 97.00 past due for att and 100 for the hotel (so I could get some money back in my pocket-- Mac would give me part of the cash I'd paid back).

What a ridiculous situation.  As the girls keep telling me over and over and over again I should be grateful and they don't owe me anything.  Why couldn't they have just got the whole thousand to me, or at least the last 200 of it, by Wednesday, or Thursday, or Friday?  Why do they always do this to me?

Now you have company.  I've stuck G behind the 8-ball, and assuming he helps it will hurt him now, as Christmas approaches.

I can't stand this.  This is hell.  Why why why?