That's Right I'm Still Here

Still haven't signed the paperwork.  They're still working on it.  Meanwhile I'm out of money.  

They confirmed the car rental would be 290.00 and started talking about flying me and shit I don't believe it.  No airports or bus stations anywhere around here.

Meanwhile now it's Friday.  My weekly ran out noon Wed and I put deposits down til noon today.  If I'm stuck til Monday it's another weekly.

But I got a bag of Fritos and a hot dog in the fridge, so I got that goin for me...

In an hour I'll text Korena about this and try to get the rent covered if I can't pick the truck up on the weekend.

This is hell.  No paperwork broke hungry desperate uncertain begging ashamed helpless worried desperate constantly.

When I tell her what's up I'm going to get bashed and insulted some more.  They keep saying "I don't think you understand (all their problems)" and they keep torturing me.

Well the truck is in Nashville and the papers I need to sign are in the works.  That should get done today.  Then I just have to get to Nashville.

But for right now I've got to pay rent and get food money for tomorrow and Sunday.

It's 10:00 checkout is noon and ill probably have to get Mac the manager to wait.

"When what time?" He always asks I DONT KNOW.

"She's not going to pay 290.00" what the hell are they going to do to save 8% of my last repair bill or 2/3rds of a tank of fuel?

I did all the searches weeks ago.  They naturally don't believe me.  They think I'm lazy and a liar.  They're going to find out what I found out, but they'll waste more time trying to wriggle out of the 290.00.

If I run one load for her she makes more than that.  If I run that load one day later?  Well?  If I have to pay for another weekly it costs MORE!

They see 290.00, think it's too much, and don't reason it out beyond that.  I try to point this out and get interrupted and talked over and then yelled at like I'm ranting.

God and I see it coming.  I might well have to hit G up again!  What if he can't do it?  That's right it's YOU.

Shitshitshit this is insane.  I am insane.  

Update: "I don't have ANY MONEY ROBERT" "I'm 2000 negative in the bank" "Sorry I can't pay my bills either".

G will pay my weekly one last time.  If I read it right, he's borrowing it.  Welcome to my nightmare G.  

God bless you.  

PS: I'm getting life insurance (not sure how much).  You're the beneficiary.  In case: Take care of G (700 and some extra k?)